Being bi-polar

today at work had a anxiety attack, then feel so frustrated.. and then feel so tired like i need sleep for a million years or something..don't really feel 38 going on 39 much less i feel all of 20 .. its amazing how the world looks to me so big with my eyes where i cant scream out wheni want to but do that at home on a given night.. if the mood hits me.. good thing i have my cat with me.. and my friends who put up with me and my moods.. because i view myself different in a ever crowed world