Sunday, June 24, 2007

Article I just read.. Pot Vs Booze

invisible me

i am invisible
like the water drifting on the sea
like the sun and the moon
and the stars in the sky

i am invisible
waving my arms like a tree
from the wind that blows
from the lonely sea

i am invisible
invisible me....

( victoria 9:12am june 24th 07.. )

Thursday, June 21, 2007

New pics of Nysa

New pics of my cat Nysa

Nysa, she is 13 weeks old now...she has recently taught me how to fetch.. she will take a piece of milk carton the ring and bring it to the computer drop it on the keyboard and want me to throw it.. so i do that and she comes right back with it..

here she is the pic on the left thats where she sleeps with her stuffed animals on her tower, and the other is looking at the birds though the window.. I always say Nysa, cats dont eat birds.. her response is meow... lol

Monday, June 18, 2007

Favorite Comic


alone with my thoughts
swimming in my head..
the darkness comes up
swallows me
fills my thoughts
and i cant breathe
fills my world
turns to black and red
blood pumping
heart racing
soul searching
for the thoughts
that are in my head
telling me
i am not alone
that i am loved

Movie I want to see...

In a startling mature and nuanced performance, Parker Posey plays Nora Wilder, a thirty-something Manhattanite who is cynical about love and relationships, in this astute collaboration with first-time writer/director Zoe Cassavetes. Nora plugs away at her job in a posh downtown hotel and can't help but wonder what it is she has to do to find a relationship as ideal as her friend Audrey's (Drea De Matteo) "perfect marriage." It doesn't help that her overbearing mother (Gena Rowlands) takes every opportunity to remind Nora that she's still unattached. After a series of disastrous first dates, she meets Julien (Melvil Poupaud), a seemingly devil-may-care Frenchman with a passion for living. Expecting another disastrous ending, Nora tries to avoid making the same mistakes. She finds herself in Paris looking to break old patterns. Inevitably, Nora has to look inward before she can find a new outlook on life and most importantly, love.

This is a movie I really want to see.. found this little gem while i was surfing the web...i really do hope it comes to my town, if not i plan to buy it...Looks really good and i can see me as being Parker Posey.. cant waite to see it..

found this movie while are some more clips on the bottom about it..

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Fathers Day

You grow up learning what love is from a family
keeping you safe

You learn to ride a Bike
Fly a kite
Sail a boat
climb a mountain

all from a man
who is a hero in his own way

happy fathers day dad
your my hero...

~ Victoria

Saturday, June 16, 2007

My heart is swollen with so much emotion inside..
so much feeling so much thought
of ones own life
of ones own head
of ones own heart

its the soul that is torn into
of the feeling that is empty

in ones own head
ones own mind

the heart is full of love
so fragile
so frail

of a time when things were new
the clouds full of color
birds happy
and the flowers in bloom

all the heart sees is rain
blue clouds of tears
rolling down

to make floods
of the soul....

longing for the time
were the flowers bloom
the sun shines again

on the heart
on the soul

on me...

Friday, June 15, 2007


into the abyss of darkness
swells the sea
above the clouds
the mountain tops
birds so beautiful sky so big

the glass color of the sky
orange and pink
all mixing together

from the shimmering
heat of the glow
that seems to last forever

this orange pinkish color
seeming to divide into one

to make in contrast the bold brillant blue
of the night sky
that erases all the sun's movement

to where a field of stars lay in waite
for the new day to come again...

( wrote this at work , wednesday )

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Happy wednesday...

One of the few things I am enjoying in life is the Linkin Park Cd Minutes to Midnight.. and let me tell you its really good... i always listen to it before i go to work... one of the songs i think is so power full is Hands Held High.. makes me think of war and who is fighting it who is dieing in it.. this song makes me really think..

when the rich wage its the poor that die.. I love that line from this song...

Linkin Park Hands Held High Lyrics
Turn my
mic up louder I got to say somethin.
Lightweights step it aside when we come in
Feel it in your chest, the syllables get pumpin
People on the street they panic and start running.
Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming.
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme i'm dumping.
Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
Jump when they tell us that they wanna to see jumping.
Fuck that, I wanna see some fist pumping.
risk something, take back what's yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for.
Like this war's really just a different brand of war.
Like it doesn't cater to rich and abandon poor.
Like they understand you in the back of the jet, when you
can't put gas in your tank, and these fuckers are
laughing their way to the bank, cashing the check
asking you to have compassion, have respect
for a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
in the living room laughing like
what did he say?

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen

In my living room watching, I am not laughing, Cause
when it gets tense I know what might happen
The world is cold, the bold men take action
have to react or get blown into fractions.
Ten years old, it's something to see, another
kid my age drug under a jeep,
taken and bound, and found later under a tree,
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me.
[Hands Held High lyrics on]

Do you see, the soldiers, they're out today they
Brush the dust from bulletproof vests away.
It's ironic, at times like this you pray,
but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday.
There's bombs on the buses, bikes, roads,
inside your market,your shops, your clothes, My dad,
He's got a lot of fear I know
but enough pride inside not to let that show.
My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine.
On the back, he hand wrote a quote inside:
"when the rich wage war, it's the poor who die"
And meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like
what did he say?

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.
Sometimes life is not what you expect or the people you have in it maybe you expect to much from them..but there has to come a time to let all the world float away and to forgot about your problems and to say what about me?? what about me ??? the soul is weary for helping everyone and being left being left in the middle of a pool of a frozen soul.. Hard to think of a time when thoughts didn't surround everyone else.. and feeling left out in the middle of a pool of a frozen soul stuck in a frozen time where there are no sun sets.. no life no time to spare only hope of not to be stuck in the sands of time and to be forgotten.. to be forgotten in the heart..

~ victoria

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Let two souls and worlds collide
turns to dust at your feet
all falls away
all tears away
from the beginning
and to the end
from the middle
the beginning
to the sun highs
and lows

let two souls collide
let days and nights
have sunrise

let the earth
turn to dust

when two souls collide

its a matter of time

for dust to come
and for hearts to break
in the cold moon light

Monday, June 4, 2007

I lie in wake wondering waiting whats it all for
time there is to much of it
there is to little of it
its all around us
waiting for us to make the right decision
for our life for ourselves..
waiting for time to catch up
in ones own mind
in ones own soul

time has left me
but thats all
i really have

is time..

Friday, June 1, 2007

Vous avez la clef à mon coeur et âme

Quand je pense à vous. Mon monde cesse de se déplacer pendant un certain temps, exposent au soleil alors pourrait refuser de briller mais mon monde serait si parfait avec vous dans ma vie vous droit près de moi... son les choses qui nous rendent plus forts comme savoir de personnes ce qui nous avons savoir ce qu'est vrai. Son vous que je serai toujours of..The tellement très fier un je voudrez venir à la maison à. Pour le reste de mon life..The un qui sait et aura toujours la clef à mon coeur.

Pour moi prends tout l'amour et le moment pour vous dans le world..Knowing vous. est ce qui m'obtient cependant le jour.